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31.1.06
Fearless.../ 9:18 PM Watched Fearless yesterday, put me into thinking when Huo Yuanjia told his Japanese opponent behind a cheering crowd: Jap:" 活着，比什么都重要" 霍元甲："你听到了...人,从来都不是为了自己而活着" In the scene when he said this, he already kena poisoned, about to die. Yet, he chose to fight to the end when his opponent actually offer him to end the duel and go to the hospital for treatment so that he gets a chance to live on. But, for the honour of the duel, for the pride of the country, for the crowd, to spur the fighting spirit of his countrymen, he fought on, and died of poisoning... Hope that more people in the world know the meaning of this statement... DZD! hen ke ai w0r... Anyway you all don't noe whu is dzd right...its the ever-lovely, cute and sweet elaine from RH block 5!! well, yah, tts dzd for u all, she disturb me while i was blogging!! So rude!! will use 霍家拳 to teach her a lesson next time... hahas... |
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27.1.06
/ 9:43 PM Woo hoo!! Arts Bash I is finally over!! thanks for all the support, the bash was a success!! yeah, and thanks to all my friends, i sold a total of 16 tix!! Thankew!! However, it was really tiring... whole night of standing, doing duty, walk ard to see if "anything" happen, etc etc... came back at 5.30am, ate supper till 7am, sleep at 8am!! missed all my lectures!! Haiz... Heard something yesterday night which I really agree: "every bash will have its own stories on the night itself" Yup, this bash had its fair share of stories as well... (as i know that there are pple out there reading my blog, i shall not say too much about these stories, so as to protect the interests of myself and others...) On that note, i feel that girls should really know how to protect themselves when clubbing... And, sorry to my frens (you all know who you all are la), din do my part to protect you all well... Luckily nothing real bad happen... Sorry... Was toking to Ah Pat on msn just now when he said that my tone sounds different as compared to last sem, and I look different as well... (meaning the "aura" around me is changind? hahas) Well, my hall mates said the same things to me as well.... See, as I've said, bit bit will, has to, and is really, changing bit by bit... (juz hope that all these changes are worthwhile and on the right track) Oh! Just adopted a siao zabor as my sister (Nicole) earlier this week! and with it comes a brother-in-law (Daniel)!! hahas... Hmm, Chinese New Year is coming but I in no mood for it... Wana go home tonight to be a guai kia, but my mum actualli ask mi to go home tomolo morning! Ok, shall use the cny long weekend to sleep, meet old frens, play mahjong and hopefully study abit... hahs... 新年快乐！！ 万事如意！！ |
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26.1.06
tired.../ 2:10 AM Tired... Really tired... Lack of sleep, excessive meetings and PR and thinking too much is the cause... hahas... sometimes I really feel that cloning is good, coz lidat there can be a few more bit bits around... one can go arts club, one go RH, one go play mj wif brudders, one go study, one go make new friends, one go home to pei papa mama... and I can juz go sleep... hahas... sounds egoistic eh... hmm, on another note, given the theory that bit=trouble, 5 more bits means 5 times more troubles! hahas!! Hmm, sorry for the oversight on my part, really shldnt have made that mistake... Aiya... Tsk... *slap my own head* Can sense that alot of feelings, emotions and issues are in the process of making... Wells, that's part and parcel of life, its inevitable... But, its a good sign, coz it shows that everyone is passionate about it, thus the emotions... :) I'm all prepared for it le... Woohooo!! Arts Bash I in less than 15hrs time!! Looking forward to see my all my friends enjoying themselves tomolo!! :) Alritey, time to sleep!! |
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24.1.06
THANKS/ 10:09 PM Really thanks alot to my RH hall-mates for buying my Arts Bash tix... Really really appreciate it and touched! Really... :) Had room session today... It was really fun toking cock: toking about everything under the sun, gossips, BGR, guy vs gers issues... everything, everything except serious stuff, everything that's not work-related, not academically related... Been thinking too much recently, guess tt room session was really a good break from everything... Oh yah!! Dzd, I know u got read my blog one... Really thanks for your C1000... Yah, thanks! *sayang* hahas... Once again, THANKS!!! |
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Keep Learning!!/ 3:07 AM Did booth duty for arts bash today... Haha, felt so cock of myself, wearing tt short pants and VS tie, made me remember those days when I was younger, those days when I dun comb my hair, dun spike my hair, innocent and cute (well, im still cute by the way... :P) Hmm, but I don't really like booth duty... Fundamentally, I think its because I feel that I don't learn anything out of it anymore... Went for NUSSU council meeting in the evening... Every nussu ccil meeting is a major learning point for me... Learn about how the system in NUS works, learn about how different clubs function, get to communicate with other clubs and most importantly, know more people!! Later in the night, went to eat dinner with Engin Club pres Chun Kiat, talked along the way and learnt a lot from him... A few days ago, I talked to Clement, learnt a lot from his past experiences as well... That's why I like to talk to seniors and people from other clubs and CCAs, they always provide me with new learning experiences... :) However, the more I learn, the more I feel that I do not know. The more I learn, the less I feel I know... Solution: Keep learning!!!!! Realised a very very important point recently: continuity within the MC and leadership in the club is very very very important... |
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22.1.06
2 songs/ 8:32 AM Been listening repeatedly to these 2 songs due to some personal reasons and recent events... 1) 无间道 不我不愿意结束 我还没有结束 无止境的旅途 看着我没停下的脚步 已经忘了身在何处 谁能改变人生的长途 谁知道永恒有多么恐怖 谁了解生存往往比命运还残酷 只是没有人愿意认输 我们都在不断赶路 忘记了出路 在失望中追求偶尔的满足 我们都在梦中解脱 清醒的苦 流浪在灯火阑珊处 去不到终点回到原点 享受那走不完的路 一路上演出难得糊涂 一路上回顾难得麻木 在这条亲密无间的路 让我像你你像我怎么会孤独 我们都在不断赶路 忘记了出路 在失望中追求偶尔的满足 我们都在梦中解脱 清醒的苦 流浪在灯火阑珊处 既然没终点回到原点 我想我们都不 不在乎 2) 醉拳 我癫癫又倒倒 好比浪滔 有万种委屈 付之一笑 我一下低 我一下高 搖搖晃晃不肯倒 酒里乾坤我最知道 江湖中闯名号 从来不用刀 千斤的重擔 我一肩挑 不喊冤也不求饶 对情義我肯弯腰 醉中显好汉一條 莫说狂 狂人心存厚道 莫笑痴 因痴心难找 莫怕醉 醉过海阔天高 且狂且痴且醉趁年少 wells, again... only people who knows it knows what im trying to say... :P and, only pple who knows me well or are as cheena as mi knows why i like these 2 songs... :) |
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Ji Dun/ 4:36 AM wells, today I went to cheong again... PRU Bash at MOS! hmm, it was a rather bad start as my friends couldn't get tix and there were conflicting comments on tix sales from both PRU side and MOS side... but, in the end, after much clarification and waiting, we finally managed to get our tix and went in happily! Oh ya, on this note, i don't like to cheong one k... I really dun like the ji-dun-ing of clubs... but, sometimes, out of goodwill, friendship, PR etc, I hafta buy tix... and since I've bought the tix, mite as well I go there and fully enjoy myself rite? hahas... PRU bash was alrite, there was a big crowd, with alot of NUS students. Problem is that the music in the hip hop section was not really very high... but still, I qte enjoy it coz I getta know more people, and getta meet up and tok cock with long-time-no-see friends from other faculties and CCAs. Haiz, too bad my fone was low batt, if not I could have gotten more numbers! (solely for PR purpose, not for chee hong-ing...) aniwaes, Arts Bash's coming up!! to those pple who are reading my blog, pls buy tickets from me!! its 26th Jan at Club Momo! 14 bucks only!! Its definitely gona be fun, trust me!! bit bit dun lie one! and frens shld hlp out one another wat... so, buy from me k... :) |
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19.1.06
Sick, but inspired Bit/ 5:45 PM Oh! I finally fell sick le!! Its the time when sai zua becomes my best friend! Sneezing, blocked nose, headache and cough... But, there is still booth duty and clubroom duty to do... bleah... Its the first time of my nus life to enter the health and fitness centre to see doc!! woohooo, and its free!! wah, next time must really utilise that place fully man... hehe... Was sourcing for people for o week com these few days again... Den, I start to link it to 三国演义 again! (Hahas, dono why but nowadays I just like to link everything happening around me to 三国演义 and 僵尸3...) When I first started reading 三国 in primary school, I detested and condemned Liu Bei, thinking that he's a gu niang, no skills, no leadership, always getting himself and others into shit, when things go wrong, he will display his 绝招: cry like baby... In short, he's a total flop, cannot make it! However, recent events shed a different light on my perspective of Liu Bei. Firsly, he mite not be very good in fighting, planning etc, but he is good in one skill that many leaders lack... The ability to recognize others' abilities at the very first contact... He's able and confident to give all his trust and power to newblood to run the show, and the results proved his judgements... Most importantly, he's able to get talents of different character, different skills and different ambitions working wholeheartedly towards his course, regardless of how much difficulties they have to go through... Nowadays, i start to think that, its not Liu Bei who's lucky to find Zhuge Liang, its the other way round... Zhuge Liang is just meant for him... Liu Bei proves the theory of "good leaders grow leaders"... Yah, really get inspired by Liu Bei recently... His level of PR skills and HR skills are really what I'm trying to learn... |
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18.1.06
Got that jia lat meh?/ 1:43 AM Really think that I'm falling sick soon... I have been coughing, sneezing and having blocked nose for a long time le... And I'm feeling more and more tired, despite the fact that I sleep alot alot during the weekends... 不知道我还能撑多久... One horrible thing that I realised, my "black face" is coming back again!! Oh nos! I remember last time in JC, my black face was the most disgusting thing to be seen on earth, I dowan it to come back!! A friend told me that 我瘦了... Haiz... (slim down somemore and I'll be left wif bones le!) More people are coming up to ask me if I'm ok... (Erm, thanks, but I think I'm alrite) More people say that I'm less jovial le... (bec im changing bit by bit to be perceived as more serious wat...) Laine said that I'm trying to do too much... (got meh?) Wa lau, got that jia lat meh? |
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17.1.06
/ 8:02 PM This is one of the times in the year when i get "human-phobic"... Today, I woke up feeling very low in social energy level... Its those times of the year when you just don't want to step out of your room or see anyone... As I walk down the slope to Central Library, and seeing the crowd, I suddenly felt a sense of fear, a fear of crowd and crowded surroundings... Yah, and I have to do booth duty for recruitment drive today! Shageli... Yah, and I still have to call up sponsors today, smiling, lowering my tone while speaking... Bleah... Aniwae, i know this "period" will be over soon, and my ra-ra-ness will be back again!! Oh yah, doing my last phase of "Operations Bike Quest Marketing" now... Well, its not very well done, but at least I've done my best... Yups, given a first timer, its quite good already... Self consolation here... Hahas... Yups, I'm this Ah Q... That's why I'm always so 看得开... Well, being Ah Q is being positive too!! :) Nonetheless, it was a good learning experience! Not forgetting the aim of me joining Arts Club MC is to learn as much as possible, and to grow and change with experience bit by bit... :) Oh, not forgetting the highlight of the day! The exciting voting process... Well, in the end, it shows that a coalition is the most powerful and most favourable choice! Yups... Well, a lot of people around me are feeling, or will be feeling sad, down and tired, so all the more I should be energetic, ra-ra and happy to spread hope around! |
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我和僵尸有个约会3/ 12:17 AM A word of advice to 人王， pls dun be too extreme... Pls dun push things over the limit... and pls... dun start the 灭世之战... You have the capability to create, and at the same time destroy. pls do not do the latter... To 命运, you mite have your own concepts and ideals on what this world should be, but this world belongs to humans, pls let them decide on their own future and fate... it mite not be what u want it to be, but as long as humans are happy with it and are responsible for it, u should'nt go to the extreme... To 圣母，if you have the capability to stop this whole event from turning from bad to worst, pls do so soon... To 地藏王， pls 插手 asap... dun wait till things go bad den turn yourself into an arrow... To 况天佑，马小玲 and 毛忧, pls dun get involve in it, its complicated enuf le... Hope there won't be a 完颜不破 around, coz he's a sad character... Oh, how can i forget Mr X? Wells, settle your 完颜无泪 first la... :p Pray that I can be the 在劫 looking at everything from his UFO, while searching for his 永恒国度... I'm typing this blog in such a way because I feel that many things that are happening around me and on my friends really fit the story of A Date With The Vampire 3... Yups... Wells, if u happen to fit the above description in aniwae, what i hafta say is 以上故事,纯属虚构.如有雷同,实属巧合! Hahas... |
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15.1.06
Brothers wat.../ 12:39 PM Arghhh!! Juz as I was sleeping soundly in my room, I was woken up by noise!! All the "piak" sounds, laughters, shoutings and vulgarities of the sepak takraw people woke me up!!! So IRRITATING!!!!!!!! But, this also shows that these people are a bunch of fun-loving and ra-ra people that are closely bonded... This is what brotherhood is all about. When u're with your "brudders", you can just let loose of yourself and say whatever nonsense you like, do whatever "stunts" you wana do... hahas... On that note, I really missed those days when I play mahjong, go seletar dam bbq, chill out at some kopitiam to tok cock with my brothers... Those were the happiest days... All the "gei gao mehz", "oh c'mon", "cb you", "naaaaa"and "FOND" hahas... All our nonsense! Still remember on the last day of our exams last sem, before our last paper, we were shouting and laughing outside the MPSH!! Hahas, so funny! Yupz, cant imagine it, I actually know them for more 5 yrs, some even 10 yrs!! Fate brought us together, and I thank fate for that... To my brudders, oh well, you know who u all are, so I shall not mention names here... Just wana tell you guys that I never and will not neglect you guys de. I might be a clubber, a haller, but more importantly, we're brudders!! Like what ah goh said, brothers, no matter how long they din see one another, they will forever be brothers... Yups... "brudders wat..." :) |
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14.1.06
/ 6:51 PM A word of advice for all leaders... "feelings and emotions of EVERYONE has to be taken care of" I always believe that there are 良将s out there and around us to be discovered, and we should, as far as possible, dig them out and give them the chance... ya, give them the chance... If Liu Bei did not give Zhuge Liang the chance to take charge of the whole army in Zhuge Liang's first battle, his potential and intelligence might not be able to unleash to the full, and his loyalty will definitely be much lower... In other words, what i wana say is, if Zhuge Liang is not given the chance, this Zhuge Liang won't be the Zhuge Liang that we now know... However, on the other hand, I hafta say that, if Zhuge Liang take things easier, he might be able to live longer... 所以，做人要看得开... 拿得起，放得下，人才会快乐... Hahas, cheem rite? It takes a person well-versed in Romance of the 3 Kingdoms to understand what I'm trying to say... hmm, on that note, think that i should be able to live till a ripe old age... hahas... |
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Like this song alot/ 6:36 PM Like this song alot, think that its very touching and meaningful... Its the chinese serial <<有福>> theme song... 《明天的幸福》 也許我沒拿到滿分 還不算是完美的人 所以我比誰都認真 努力趕上你的標準 愛你就是我的責任 我跟昨天的我競爭 要用笑容取代淚痕 看你難過我會心疼 故事還沒有結束 讓我再把你摟住 別忘了預約 明天的幸福 走過的每個腳步 都值得歡欣鼓舞 能為你吃苦 不覺得苦 手心有你的溫度 冷酷就可以擋住 我為你約好 明天的幸福 在人海起起伏伏 愛是唯一的地圖 要陪你看見 每個日出 我不要故事結束 就讓我把你摟住 別忘了預約 明天的幸福 走過的每個腳步 都值得歡欣鼓舞 能為你吃苦 不覺得苦 手心有你的溫度 冷酷就可以擋住 我為你約好 明天的幸福 在人海起起伏伏 愛是唯一的地圖 要陪你看見 每個日出 |
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12.1.06
/ 10:08 PM Juz received my blk t-shirt... a few days ago, i received my IHG t-shirt... Finally, RH shirts are getting beta in quality and design! At the same time, felt a bit bad, coz I cant participate in hall activities aimore like last sem... Every day when Rafflesians say "Hi" to me, there will be a sudden pai-seh-ness that brush thru me... Sorry folks, I really got no time to participate in IHG. I'm an Arts Club MC member, I'm constitutionally bonded to it and I love the faculty and the club... Hope u guys understand, esp touch rugby guys... Feel very out of place in hall these days... hahs, I still remember that during the RH bash, the drunked ex jcrc pres asked mi to feel the RH spirit and stay to work for RH... wells, dono if that was said when he's drunked or really truthful, wateva it is, Im sorry but I hafta let you down le... |
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wells.../ 9:12 PM Realised tt I kept saying "wells" these days... Wells, some things in life, you can only use "oh wells" as a reply, coz some things in life have no answer, but wells... Today, I called up prospective sponsors. everytime I put down the phone, hong will be there laughing out loud, sometimes she'll "humpf" me... hahas, oh wells... Den I suddenli remembered that in my younger days, when I was 16/17 yrs old, I also feel that 社交，or doing PR, is a "fake" job, a 阿谀奉承 job... However, as I get older, I realised the importance of it, esp when I'm in NS... Alot of times, the process of work will be cut by half if you have good "gum cheng" (hokkien, meaning good relations) with people, be it higher, same or lower in status... Doing PR is all about making frens, coz u'll never know when the person that u last shook hand with may help u when ure in need, or the person that u juz tok cock to mite turn out to be your lifelong fren... Doing marketing is about making frens for the organisation that u love, so that both sides can benefit in the long run... I know that 不为五斗米折腰 is a very 清高 attitude, very noble indeed... but, sometimes I can't help to think that pple who have such thots are selfish who are not thinking of the bigger picture... Wells, its juz a smile, a few words of praise and lowering down your tone. your pride, principles won't be affected at all wat... Wells, guess many of you won't agree to what I've said so far... But, talking at the right time, using the right words, and smiling at the right time really is a life skill to learn. Some people are born with it naturally, others have to learn, and im belong to the latter. Whatever it is, its sure that people who don't belong to either grp will have a hard time... Earlier in the day, when we went out for supper, jj shocked mi with a question, a qn abt R and L... hahas... wells, any answer to this kind qn will onli 越描越黑, and pple usually dun believe what i said, juz like till now, many pple dun believe that R has got over E as well... Wells, time will tell... Oh, just now i heard a story about a fren... Wells... Many a time, some people did not do much, but they are not branded as "slack"... Sometimes, quiet workers who had done lots more than others did not get the due credit... Very often, if a person "hao lian" too much but don't deliver, he won't "live long" Usually, the person that talks too much dies first... Even though many people hate this word, but we have to agree that "wayang" and "do things at the right time" are very important skills that we all have to learn... Hmms, bad influence here... :P |
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11.1.06
/ 2:46 AM it keeps raining, and its making mi feel moody... Really hope that the sun will come out soon... So that my clothes can dry faster! hahs... |
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10.1.06
/ 5:31 PM Met up with a prospective sponsor today... realised that im actualli qte good at doing marketing... hee... on that note, i cannot, and must not fail in this bike quest marketing!! I wana show everyone that bit bit can do marketing, and log!! I wana show people that marketing can be done swee swee one... humpf! Had 10 hrs long of meeting yesterday, from 2pm to 12 am!! first o week mtg and first om in 2006... wells, its qte a sensational om, shan't write too much abt it here... And its a good feeling to 招兵买马 for o week comm! getta call alot of pple to practice my "tok cock 神功"! hehes... Walk ard NUS campus with hong hong today aft dinner and we talked abt very "sensitive" issues, hahas... so funny!! :P Hmm, suddenly a thought ran across my mind... Why isit that so many pple "pui" me, "niao" me, ask me to “go eat shit and die" and "去死啦"?! Really hate me so much meh? hahas, or isit another form of popularity and closeness? Hehe... Another thought comes to my mind... Though I know alot of people, but I have few to be called true friends... Haiz... Even though i like to meet new people and tok cock, but I got a feeling that my social energy is getting low... and it takes a longer time to top it up recently... and its running low qte often... :( No one believes me when I said this, but im actually a half-introvert... really... And, recently I felt that I owe alot of pple 人情... Outta which I owe jingheng and shuning the most... Thanks and sorry at the same time... |
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9.1.06
/ 4:05 AM haiz, dun understand why im always involved into events and issues that i shouldn't and not required to be involved in the first place... haiz... and dun understand why im always being tasked to do logistics... juz bec i got the log face?! and pls dun tell mi tts my fate! wat rubbish... 我相信命运，但我更相信人可以改变命运！ |
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Q and A/ 1:29 AM well, hong pasted this interesting quetion on her blog... it goes like this... question of the day:if one day, you finally have the chance to realise your dream but by then you already have a very steady partner, and to realise your dream, you may have to leave him/her for some time, you hope that he/she will wait for you because you truly love him/herhowever, he/she shoots you back with this answer: 你的梦想有比我重要吗？ Answer: haha, wat a shageli question.. hmm, my immediate reply is: "你要你丈夫是个没成就的男人吗?" Firstly, I'm juz gona leave her for a while, not as if I'm asking for a breakup or what... Secondly, I'm the only son of the family, and I'm a man, my dream and my ambitions and my actions concerns and affects not just me, but the people around me, my family, and most imptly, my family name... this is what i always say, the burden of the only son... so, as my gf, and perhaps my future wife, she should understand my 苦衷 and support me instead of clamping my wings... 男人，最重要的就是要有自己的事业，不是吗？ And, if she's really that type of woman who wants me to choose her over my dreams, den she isn't the right one le... 这种女人，不要也罢... ok frens, help me remember my above answer k, coz i oso wun know what my decision will be when faced with such a dilemma... sorry, im a chauvinist and an egoist, maybe that why im still single till now... but seriously speaking, its really not easy to be my gf, not to mention to be my wife, i guess... A few days ago, a fren asked mi: "do you regret joining the Arts Club MC? Do you have any regrets in your life?" Wells, i told that person: Life is short, we dun haf much time to waste by regretting over what has happened... everything in life happens for a reason... up till now, i dun regret joining mc, its my decision, and i hafta face the results of my decisions, be it good or bad, coz its MY decision... Btw, can u imagine a leader telling u that he regretted being a leader? What kinda leader will he be seen as? and now, the difficult time is just about to come, there is absolutely no time or reason that I should voice out anything like regret or wateva... yupz, everyone in life makes mistakes and wrong decisions, just learn from it and don't do the same thing again nxt time lo... :) |
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3.1.06
:)/ 11:58 PM hmm, recently really feel that I'm changing bit by bit... its like being sucked into the tide of change... I know that I nida change and know that life can only be meaningful and exciting when one is willing to learn, but who should I learn from? How should I change? I'm really not sure if I'm going the right way or falling into the dark side like what happened in the past... Really hope that I can find the Master Yoda in my life to teach me the "force" asap... Still, I believe that the master will appear when the student is ready to learn! :) Oh, heard some stories about a friend from other friends, suddenli got a feeling that a bomb is about to explode... Hmm, I dono wat to say to this friend cos I know exactly how this friend feels... Just wana tell you to 看开一点，乐观一点, coz love is all ard!! hahas... On that note, to all my frens, brudders and sisters, if you pple wana vent out your frustrations, feel free to approach me! If u juz want a listening ear, I can shut up upon request... If u just need someone to tok cock, I think I've enough life experiences to share with you! If you need a man's talk over alcohol, I'm always ready!! Dun keep any negative feelings inside you worr, coz our hearts should be used for containing the world... Our minds should be used for thinking about creating a better world for all... negative thots and emotions take up extra space! Compare yourself with the world, and u'll realised that ur woes are nothing as compared to the others, isn't it? 先天下之忧而忧，后天下之乐而乐... In the past, I feel that this statement is cock. Now, I have a totally different understanding about it... "the world is beautiful because optimistic people add colours to it. Please don't add grey to the world" |
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hate all the 伪君子s!! admire the real men!!/ 4:23 AM these 2 days, heard many stories about many 伪君子s, 披着羊皮的狼s... humpf... really cannot stand those pple who're 表里不一... that's why i always say... "time will tell"... luckily its still early... humpf, i may be xiao zhi de, but i'll still protect those ard mi from all the wolves... oh ya, was very moved by 2 guys recently, one who kept his story for many months, waiting for the right time to tell the someone his story, taking into consideration the bigger picture; the other who took the effort to think about loving a ger... mind u, its "LOVE" lo, i will never say i "love" a girl, coz its too heavy a word to use le, and im not ready for such responsibility... and the fact that he din say "i like her bec i like her" and really think abt it and persevered is really admirable... well done! both of you deserves my admiration, coz both of you are very "man" ... i shall discuss the meaning of "man" next time... hahas... oh... juz read a book titled "you can fly", and was quite inspired... think i shld start finding my role model and mentor in life... hmm... |
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new year, new blog- review on 2005/ 1:43 AM yohz all my frens out there!! Yah la, I've deicided to join the league of bloggers... its a new year, so i should try new things, and step out of my fears of blogging... haha, so here is it, my first blog!! feel free to drop in any comments oh, hope that my blog wun antagonise anione, esp the govt... hahas... hmm, 2006 has just started, think i should do a personal review on 2005... ok... here it goes... Jan/ Feb: wa~~ the most unforgettable month in my army life!! January! the month of ATEC!! haha... it was a really inspiring one month experience in Thailand... the friendships forged, the times when all the HQ personnel get together to play dai dee, the times when specs, officers, men gether together to play games regardless of rank, race, background etc... the most memorable event was still ATEC... A blardy five days long of battalion exercise, a seven days of planning, not sleeping, walking, cheong suah-ing... Really, despite the fact that i hate the job as a cheong suah opsspec, i must agree that this appointment really teaches mi alot of life skills, skills that no other ns men will understand nor getta learn: skills on planning, skills on networking, and of coz, skills on keeping urself safe in the presence of crabs and bars!! hahas... I can still remember the scenes after every mission, it was really like what was pictured in Band of Brothers etc etc... worn out soldiers lying on the ground resting, "dead" soldiers being "towed" away, officers and specs doing re-org, while anticipating for the next mission, and more importantly, the end of the whole exercise... my friend told me recently that after the whole exercise when i walk back to the tonner, he said that i really gave the "war-torn" look... helmet on my right, rifle slinging down from the left, dirt-and-sweat-covered uniform and SBO, the look of tired-ness from many many sleepless nights, the look of gladnesss coz the battle has finally ended, the look of being treated unfairly (coz the rest were sleeping while i was cheong-ing! =P), but most imptly, the look of pride!! haha, he said it was really like those SAF Ads... wa, very seh rite? :P well, after an exciting one month in thailand, Feb was a rather relaxing and easy month for me.... so, there isn't much to talk about... March/Apr: Well, nothing much to talk about for this month except that i ORD lo!! and, blardy hell, i hafta spend my 21st bdae on the parade square coz i was rehearsing for my ord parade... but, for the sake of camaraderie and wearing no1, suan le... Haha, it was really happy to see my pink ic after 2 years... and its really a strange feeling when i see the pic of 12 yr old tan chuan seng again... its like, its still me, but the "me" in the ic feels so distant and different... hmm, mebbe thats the feeling of growing up ba... haiz, on this note, im getting nostalgic again... getting back the pink ic made me realise the importance of the ic... haiz... finalli im called a "mister" again... finally i can lift my head up and say that im a real man (my mum always say im not a man until i finish army).. and, suddenli, i realised the importance of citizenship and manhood... haha, heavy responsibility man... May- Jul Yeah, life as a civillian was great!! spent nearly half a month not doing aniting, goin out, play mahjong, meeting up wif old frens etc etc... i found my first job as a translator! it was a fun and relaxing job, gotta know new friends, and new mj partners!! on this note, it has been a long time since i last saw my colleagues and boss le, really miss them... it was also during this time that i started my long and arduous quest for driving licence... Jul- Sept woah!! this 3 months were turbulent months... its really 大起大落... in july, attended arts camp, really an inspiring, exciting and tiring camp... gotta know alot of new frens, the first taste of nus fass life was great! den, joined union camp later in the month wif my frens!! know more pple, getta know abt nussu and more nus pple from all faculties... really, arts camp started my nus social circle, union camp broadened it... oh, not forgetting o week, rag, arts bash II and RH orientation... o week, rag taught me alot of things, allow me to know more about arts club, nus, and allow me to know more pple and friends! RH orientation gives me the first taste of hall life... indeed, it was through all these orientations, (Arts proj 6, union camp,RH orientation), that strengthen my belief of making a difference in NUS, and make my stay in NUS a more meaningful and constructive one, one that could change the lives of other NUS students... and i chose arts club, or rather, arts club chose me to fulfill this lofty aspiration... yups... i ran for MC... thinking back, i think im really brave in doing so, being the onli freshie from 'A' house to join the elections; not knowing most of the pple who are running; though knowing the journey ahead is tough, but not knowing whats really set in front of me... all because of my dream, the dream of changing and influencing others' lives... haha, not forgetting that during the RH bash, the ex pres ask mi to feel the RH spirit and make a difference in RH, and nussu pple asking mi to join their standing comms... haha, thanks for 看得起我, but im a FASS student, and a mere standing comm member cannot influence the big picture... that what i feel, thus i ran for MC... it was a journey of no return, but i never, and will never regret it... it was also during this same period of time when my grandma, my onli grandparent left, fell sick during my rop camp, and eventually past away on the day of my internal elections... come to think of it, i was really very 不孝... it was really a turbulent and heart-wrenching journey... it was really difficult for me, to change constantly between rara and sad, between guilt and remorse and serious and focus... still feel like crying whenever i thought of it... watever it is, its over... :) on this note, really hafta thank my rh frens (dzd, ghim etc), mc frens, and my brudders for supporting me during this period of time... if not for u pple, i wldnt even haf the strength to "act tough"... :) Oct/ Nov: woohoo!! exciting 2 months!! hahas!! first time in my life to feel and know what jealousy is like, first time in 3 yrs that i start to like a ger again... hahs, exciting, memorable indeed... well, it was really an unique experience for me, reasons, i wun tell u here! juz wana tell the ger that i once liked that, thanks for the experience, really appreciate it, it was really a very good learning experience, esp the notion of "mutual understanding"... v glad that nothing bad turn out in the end, and even happier that the friendship is still there... through this whole incident, and what happen from august till november, i realised that a lot of pple ard mi care for mi, really really very grateful to all of you, you know who u all are la, so i shan't name out everyone here... really very heartwarming and touched, so much so to the extent that i nearly teared... ok, i promised i will try my best to bring laughter and smiles to all of you, all of u who cared and stood by my side, all of you who advised me and talked to me... :) December! wooah!! an even more exciting month!! a really very busy month, a really very turbulent month... a month of tears, laughter, self discovery and new experiences... first time in my life i started to do marketing... first time in my life that i spent 3/4 of my holidays in sch, day and nite, 24hrs!! first time in my life that i made a president pissed off with mi... bleah... first time in my life that i actually feel that my toking cock skills is of use!! first time in my life that i was bombarded with so many personal talks and secrets... first time in my life that i realised that there are so many pple ard mi who cared for mi... first time in my life that i wana make these pple happier than mi as one of my personal goals... first time in my life that i realised that there is still alot to learn about arts club, abt nus, abt life, abt so many things... so many, juz so many... wa, that was a real long entry, i must say... but... its a review on one whole year wat... hmm, another exciting, turbulent and adventurous year is here! lets brace up for it!! yeah!!!! |
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