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29.9.06
OM, shopping and thots/ 1:40 AM Had 1st OM on saturday.. It was 8 and a half hrs long, but good thing was that expectations and standards were set and the MC was able to discuss on many issues as a whole. Had a little heated arguments here and there but I believe everyone treated it with rationality. And it's good to have arguments, it shows that everyone is thinking for the interests of the club using different perspectives, which, when pooled in together, will be able to generate out ideas that took into considerations of all factors raised. However, bad thing was, me, the Hon Gen Sec have a 10-page minutes to type!! On a side note, something about this 1st male Hon Gen since dono how many batches here is that, he's not afraid of handling admin, procedures, constitution, challenges in ADCC, NUSSU, projects, marketing, logistics etc etc, but, he's stressed over minutes!! :P --------- Went shopping at Queensway and Ikea with da zhi de on sunday afternoon. Haha, its damn shiok la, both of us gossiped and bitched about people (actually is a person) whom we both agreed is f**ked up! Wahaha!! Hmm, we both sorta agree on a list of conditions for a guy to be branded as "f**ked up: - can't be played on yet still want to engage in "games" - selfish when it comes to personal feelings and emotions - can't control temper and emotion - not magnanimous - not responsible yet still engage in commitments - dono what he wants in life - egoistic and chauvinistic yet have low self-esteem and pride - don't listen and don't change *if you happen to meet most of the above-mentioned criteria, haha, you're f**ked up!However, if you realised it yourself, you're still "save-able"; those incorrigible ones are those who dun even know/ reject the fact that they have these problems themselves!! Hmm, and perhaps its really true like what she said, that I'm good at concealing my personal feelings and emotions, esp after so many tests and tribulations. As such, I'm never really very very close to anyone, let alone getting attached. Haha, and she started to list down the criteria that my future gf need to have! It seems almost impossible to find one that meets them lo!! :( --------------------- And it seems like nowadays pple just like to keep harping on my singlehood! Haha, wateva lor, you all got attached big f**k la! haha Hmm, but one thing I have to say is that, I really don't have any target in mind now at all. And most prob its not easy for me to have one anytime soon, even if I have, no1, I'm not good at chasing after girls, and no2, most probably I won't be doing anything about that "feeling", and just let it pass by. However, I do agree that a part of me do want to get myself a gf la, since ive been single for the past 22 years :P However, on the flip side, a large part of me somehow is afraid of such commitments and will thus think alot about it. Besides that, I'm afraid of getting myself hurt as well, after seeing so many real-life examples... But well, love is blind, hope I can still maintain my "vision" for as long as I can... ----------------------- At night, went shopping alone at Heerens before meeting up with threesome for dinner at Billy Bombers. Haha, though you all always niao me, but I know that you are the ones that truly care for me! :P To all who’ve watched me grow, who’ve fought alongside with me, who’ve shed tears together with me, who’ve cared for me, who’ve supported me, you know who you all are, all I can say to all of you is, THANK YOU! There are many things in my mind, many many indescribable feelings which I want to share with all of you individually but it all sums up to these 2 words, with tons of sincerity and heartfelt gratitude. Really, thanks! :) |
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20.9.06
A New Beginning/ 5:01 AM AGM over on Monday 18th September... It's the day I officially stepped down as Deputy Welfare Director and also the day I stepped up officially as the Hon Gen Sec... The feeling was really, "left leg down, right leg up"... On my way strolling back to hall that night, I was recalling on the past, how I started out doing logistics since Arts Open, how I started PR-ing with NUSSU and the other clubs and societies, how I learnt marketing, how I made stupid mistakes and kena kiao one time good one, how I felt lonely and misunderstood, how I started out doing admin, how I did marketng, how I did bazaars... How I cried miserably last December, how I cried again during Arts Camp, Oweek and Rag day, how I cried alone in the middle of the night during the elections period as well... Not forgetting all the encouragements and support that the seniors, affiliates, friends, fellow MC members gave me all this while. All of you are the ones who had faith in me, one of the reasons why I re-run was because of all of you, I promise to all of you that I will not let you down One year, so much memories, so much experiences... As I was strolling, I felt a surge of purpose growing in me, but at the same time, a tinge of sadness, emptiness and loneliness as well... Indeed, like what Hock, Ridhwan and the many seniors said, re-running is really not easy, it really takes extra courage, strength, belief to re-run... with the end of an era comes the birth of another :) |
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18.9.06
Something interesting about leadership/ 4:36 AM Listening to the MnO1001 webcast, and its talking about the four types of leadership... 1) Structural View: Leaders as Architects/Engineers Emphasises on organising, building up systems and structures. Works on coordination and matching the circumstances, rational, task-oriented 2) Human Resource View: Leaders as Catalysts Align human needs to organisation, organisations exists to serve human needs. Looks for the good fit between humans and structures. 3) Culture/ Symbolic View: Leaders as Visionaries Focused on what it means. Build on beliefs and faith. 4) Political View: Leaders as Advocates Organizations are coalitions composed of varied individuals and interest groups. Decisions are about who gets what. Conflict thus is central to organizational dynamics, and power is the most important resource. Yups, which type(s) are you? Well, I know mine, hehe... :) |
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17.9.06
/ 11:48 PM All along, I've been in a difficult position... But, its only in times like this, that I start to realise that I've not made the wrong decision... |
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13.9.06
/ 3:57 PM the 27th MC is finally up!! Almost a month of campaigning, elections, rop, internals is finally over!! Phew, looking back, it was really a painful, arduous, yet enriching process. Seriously, this period of time is really a good test and training, especially for re-runners, think all those who had worked hard before and chose to re-run will understand exactly how I feel. A new com is up, the beginning of a new era! Have faith, work hard, and prove it to everyone! Like what I said at the end of my presentation for HGS, the journey ahead is long and may the Force be with you. Feel it, and use it to the benefit of all around you, just like how the many predecessors before us had :) |
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8.9.06
2 more hours to ROP/ 4:21 PM Elections is over, like what chang ning ning said, leave the results to the results... Now is ROP, feeled with anticipation and anxiety... 2 more hours to go... Tons of work to be done... Many thoughts... |
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