|
24.10.06
It's Only a Dream, It Has to Be!!/ 6:34 PM I seldom dream when I sleep, or rather, I don't remember my dreams when I wake up But, I had a long and good sleep last night I had a long and pleasant dream too Yet I woke up feeling scared Please, let it be only a dream... |
|
|
22.10.06
Feel I'm getting old/ 11:58 PM Watched The Prestige yesterday with my sis. A good show, it is. A disturbing one too. Really!! Kaoz, two friends turned foes to outdo one another and to shame the other party, using revenge as a cover for their desire to become famous. More disturbing is that both are willing to give up their loved ones, their life, their everything for just a trick secret. Even more disturbing is the fact that they actually act their whole life as a show itself. So who is the actual and real "I" when you become your own show's character? And it brought out another issue: are clones worth to live on? Hmm... --------- Was reminiscing more and more nowadays. I was standing in front of the Arts Open banner on one night last week, and I can still vivdly recall what happened last year while painting our first ever arts club banner in my mind like watching a movie. Haha, still remember those were the days when I was still young, energetic, and of course, naive and dumb dumb! :P Yups, and I started to recall back on my old council days as well... Was telling michelle the other day that a few years ago, back in NYJC I wasn't "diplomatic" at all one... And see, after so many years, so many twists and turns, me and lionel are back together working again! OH SHIT! hahaha :P About 2 months ago, I drove to Seletar Dam to take a break from all the hussles in life. Still remember the good old days when a group of us will go there have our own small barbecue cum tok cock sessions... How time flies... ---------- Someone once told me that when the day comes that you start to reminisce a lot, start to miss people and events, you know you're getting old. My late grandpa used to tell me that when you start to think that sleeping is a waste of time, but feels lonely late at night, you know you're getting old already. hmmm.... |
|
|
21.10.06
/ 11:34 PM eeeks, i hate the feeling of getting sick, esp when its gastric flu plus fever!! whole day lau sai-ing and sleeping and shivering is really a bad thing... :( my head feels like splitting and whole body aching with no energy!! -------- Oh nos, better start on my UN essay before shit start accumulating! think i need to hide in the library soon -------- Yeah!! Was really very happy today coz a few-month-old feud was finally solved!! :D Hmm, just wana tell this friend of mine that there's no need to be apologetic coz really, that incident made me stronger and tougher as an individual, and I believe that our friendship will be even stronger after that! --------- Really hope that people can be less opiniated towards one another and more appreciative and understanding towards one another, and perhaps the world shall see less conflict then. Hmm, but if that's the case, my PS lecturers Peter Li and Matthias Maas will go jobless!! haha :P |
|
|
19.10.06
/ 4:22 AM Woooh, just finished watching Ocean's 12, think its really a cool show man! I really like this kinda "thieves" show, like "the italian job", "Ocean 11", "Lucky no slevin", with stories so intelligently written and filmed, and the actors dressed till so suaved and cool, and the actresses so hot! hahas oh ya, and watching ocean's 11 somehow rather reminds me of how we plan for arts club projects George clooney is the PD, Brad Pitt DPD, and the others as O-com members using their field of speciality, with different characters coming from different cultures, each complemeting one another, and sometimes, the PD and DPD nida do some "stunts" to get things goin to achieve the end results... haha~! :P ------------ Just had ADCC meeting earlier in the evening, quite ok i guess, really hope that I can do something for ADCC that's unprecedented in Arts Club history :) ------------ Oh ya, like I was saying, Star Wars III is a disturbing show!! Esp the part where Anakin, supposedly the Chosen One, turned to the dark side and start slaughtering the younglings! Haiz, all because he was blinded by his love for Padme and led by his emotions ------------ |
|
|
16.10.06
The I-Ching/ 10:02 PM The I-Ching (Book of Changes) talks about the diagram of Qian (Heaven). Using the different stages of life of a dragon, it is used to describe the life of a leader/ sage. Speaking in general, a superior man makes himself strong and untiring throughout his life, just like that of a dragon: The dragon first started out hidden deep in the waters, remains unrecognised. Nonetheless he remains true to himself. He does not allow himself to be influenced by outward success or failure. Confident in his strength, he bides his time. Soon, the dragon appears in the fields working. As yet he has no commanding position but is still with his peers. However, what distinguishes him from the others is his seriousness of purpose, his unqualified reliability, and the influence he exerts on his environment with out conscious effort. A sphere of influence opens up for the great man. His fame begins to spread. The masses flock to him. His inner power is adequate to the increased outer activity. There are all sorts of things to be done. All day long the superior man is active. At nightfall his mind is still beset with cares. A place of transition will soon be reached, and free choice can enter in. A twofold possibility is presented to the great man: he can soar to great heights and play an important role in the world, or he can withdraw into solitude and develop himself. He can go the way of the hero or that of the holy sage who seeks seclusion. Very soon, the great man will be like the dragon who soars in the nine heavens, bringing bliss to mankind. His influence spreads and visible throughout the world. When a man seeks to climb so high that he loses touch with the rest of mankind, he becomes isolated, and this necessarily leads to failure. This serves as a warning against titanic aspirations that exceed one's power. A precipitous fall would follow. Finally one day, the dragon will bring in and nurture more dragons and create a "flight of dragons", whereby everyone is a leader and pool in their strength together without any apparent leading figure. |
|
|
13.10.06
pissed/ 5:47 PM I'm goddamn mother pissed today... Becoz... 1) I seriously DON'T like the idea of seeing my bag on the floor!!! It was not placed there, it was THROWN there!! If others' bags are there, why can't that person tolerate mine?! Is it so difficult for you to bloody pick up my bag and transfer it to another sofa? or put it on the cupboard?! And don't tell me that the sofa is for the ass! Show bloody respect for my property before I bloody show respect to your bloody ass! FIRST time in my 1 year plus in Arts Club I see my bag thrown on the floor!!! 2) I seriously DON'T like the idea of people taking things and people for granted as well. 3) And I don't like people who not smart act smart! coz I was like that before, and I kena one time good one. I learnt it the hard way, so please, don't follow my footsteps!! 4) And YOU!! nnb, I saw your f**king attitude towards me that day, and I don't like it!! smile till so fake, pretend din see mi rite? You better watch out, I warn you!! knn... |
|
|
11.10.06
Lao Bit listened, read, and quoted.. :P/ 3:00 AM Where'd you go? I miss you so, Seems like it's been forever, That you've been gone. Where'd you go? I miss you so, Seems like it's been forever, That you've been gone, Please come back home... --------------------------- Hmm, lao bit want to share a story here: Towards the end of the Eastern Han dynasty, warlords reigned the Middle Kingdom. Heroes like Cao Cao, Sun Ce, Liu Bei rose to the scene The chaotic and turbulent political arena caused many talents to go into annonymity, some hide in the mountains, most of them go to the rich cities in the east, and many hide in the peaceful scenic rural area of the Central Plains. And so came along Liu Bei He heard that the Central Plains was the "land of sages", and thus he went there to look for "the one" He saw many, he asked many to help him. Some of them were cynical, some of them weary, others were scared. And finally he found Xu Shu, Sima Hui, who intro to him Zhuge Liang. And so he went to look for this Sleeping Dragon. He visited his home personally, and sought for audience (he is of royal blood, yet he "sought for audience" with a commoner"!!) with Zhuge Liang for 3 times before he finally got the chance to see him, talk to him to discuss the future of China. He was enlightened by Mr Zhuge, and expressed his interest to recruit him as his advisor, urging him to come out of annonymity and 打天下 with him. Zhuge Liang turned him down, Liu Bei cried, and literally beg him before Zhuge Liang agrees. From then on, the fate of Liu Bei, and thus the history of China, turned! From then on, many other well-known strategists, warriors, scholars, administrators, came to join Liu Bei's camp upon hearing how Liu Bei moved Zhuge Liang with his sincerity. People, especially talents, look out for sincerity more than any other things from leaders. Liu Bei used this quality to build for himself the last stronghold for the crumbling Han dynasty, the state of Shu. And talents want to feel appreciated. Cao Cao, for all the bad remarks on him being sly, ambitious, cunning, valued his strategists and generals a lot. Thus he built the vast state of Wei;Sun Ce valued Zhou Yu, treating him like his brother, and Zhang Zhao as a teacher, and created for himself and Sun Quan the state of Wu. -------------------------------- "There are 3 types of intelligence, one understands things for itself; the 2nd appreciates what others can understand, the 3rd understands neither for itself nor thru others. The first type is excellent, the 2nd good, the 3rd useless" -- Machiavelli, The Prince |
|
|
8.10.06
Songs/ 1:30 AM Yeaps, these are the few songs that I feel are meaningful or are impactful to my life recently: - Somewhere Over The Rainbow (Weilong sent it to me on a particular night when I felt weak in the Force..) - He's A Pirate (yeah! theme music for Pirates of the Carribbean, everytime I hear it, it boosts my morale!) - Star Wars Theme Music and the Imperial March (hahas, Star Wars 4eva!!) - 无间道 (weee~ my fav movie!!! 我是警察！So meaningful lor) - Where You'd Go (Chang ning ning influenced me to really listen to this song, and I feel that at certain points in my life when I was yr1, there were pple who were trying (maybe very hard) to tell me things in the contents of the lyrics as well... But...) - 咸鱼 (haha, think this song really describes me! and I learnt about this song at the turning point of my life when I made "the decision") - 曹操 and 霍元甲 (haha! coz of these lyrics --- "不是英雄，不读三国，若是英雄， 怎么能不懂寂寞" & "骄傲的活下去") - and Tokyo Drift as well! (bec "2 fast (FASS) 2 furious" mah!) |
|
|
6.10.06
Do i look like my display pic? wahaha/ 5:09 AM sometimes, I feel that its in my blood that the more people talk about the negativities of me or a particular task, the more I want to do it to prove them wrong. At the same time, the more people have faith in me, the more I feel obliged to do a good job... Hmm, maybe that's linked to my ego and pride... But that might be a good thing too, isn't it? -------------- Hmm, was reading through my past entries, somehow rather, I feel that my blog entries are getting less and less serious, less "political" too, and more relaxed recently... Haha, does it mean that I'm easing into my job? Or does it means that I'm more and more capable of concealing what I really really feel? Hmm, Or worst, feeling more and more numb?! Aiya, whateva la, just blog as I want to la, just be more careful about my tone, choice of words and more careful when addressing sensitive issues lor... But think I'm rather good at it bit by bit... :P Speaking about blogs, I was reading an old friend's old blog a few days ago and suddenly I realised: OMG, how things have changed, how much I've changed and how relations have changed in the past one and a half year, esp the one year I'm in Arts Club, some are sad, some are happy, with a tinge of regret and sadness though, but all of them are worth remembering... No wonder those "old people" always say that 'Arts Club experience will change your life forever'... And ya, was talking to a few friends recently, and I think my 2 years in Arts Club will eventually determine my career path as well! OMG!! -------------- And... Aiyoooo, Please spare me!!! I'm innocent!! -------------- And, okok, I'll try to be less PCD okie... -------------- Oh, you know what's the best way of creating general uproar? just say that u look like my display pic!!
(heys, I've learnt how to upload pictures liao ok...) |
|
