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26.8.07
/ 11:03 PM woooooohooooo! it feels good to be missed! hahas and yeaps, there are really lots of learning points that I've picked up from the Dragon 100 study tour! for eg... -I finally got a chance for practical experience from what I've learnt from Singapore Foreign Policy, terms like "cultural interloctor", "middle man", "asian values", "soft power" kept coming to my mind as I spoke to foreign delegated both from East and West... (will talk about this in details next time) - Made new friends and networked with people from all over the world, from students to businessmen to professors! - learnt new skills like tea appreciation - great platform for practising PR, diplomacy, and skills that I've learnt from "bible" etc - learn new language and culture - realise that Singlish is really nothing to be proud of - having a global experience made me value singapore and my friends even more! - my LEP background and knowledge really helped me lots and lots while interacting with Hong Kong and Mainland Chinese - strengthened my beliefs and aspirations - and my prefectorial board, student council, adcc, nussu council and especially arts club MC, and their varied leadership experiences had really helped me alot alot. Will talk in details about it when I come back. But, one thing for sure is that at least I don't talk stupidly in front of people. - realised that foreigners are really impressed by our National Service! Guess that's our Singapore "unique culture"... - this is to the female readers: if you think that Singapore guys are un-gentleman, you're totally wrong man! yes, we do have our flaws to be improved, but we're definitely attractive, esp on the international stage! :P - but at the same time, I really think that Singaporeans lack global exposure and really too complacent of themselves! - Cantonese is more of a binding language between all the delegates than mandarin! When I go back, I'm definitely going to learn more canto from wong tien kwan! - when i'm back, I'll read up more on confucianism as well! Somehow rather, I got this feeling that it could be used as a form of "soft power" by Asian states - and I wana visit a tea tavern!! :) - and many many more... |
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23.8.07
/ 2:53 AM In my personal humble opinion: past, present amd future MC, Elections, ROP, AGM, Thank-you Dinner, all come together as a whole, as a package, each affecting one another and have deep and serious impacts if misappropriately run and managed. As such, the timing, decisions, consultation, advice, selection of people, words both spoken and written, ideas, management style, rationality, professionalism, becomes very very important ----- The greatest mistake that a leader could commit is failure to listen... and this mistake has a few causes other than he/she being deaf: - leader too full of himself/herself, thinking that he/she is objective and smart - leader is not experienced, yet stubborn - leader cutting himself/ herself off from the crowd - leader lost the "touch" with the crowd all in all, its the leader to be blamed, but the consequences of his/ her fault are bore by others... |
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21.8.07
/ 5:51 PM For the bigger picture of friendship and everyone! :) ----- Wah, really quite amazed by myself, it takes me only one hour totally see it through! hahas! ----- and really very thankful to all my friends! I should really thank god, whenever I have problems, there will always be people appearing to help me through it! :) ----- Leaving Singapore with one less major emotional baggage :D |
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/ 1:14 PM I'm leaving on a jet plane... having mixed feelings now coz of elections, rop, studies, arts club matters and personal matters which have yet to settle... Guess carol wongs will be going through more mixed emotions now! :/ To wongs, just in case I don't getta see you today or in Hong Kong, just wana tell you to go enjoy yourself in HK! We'll miss you lots lots ok!! Hahas!! Thanks for being such a helpful good friend, and a loveable "whiny pussy" all this while!! Hahahs!!! And I really mean to what I've promised you ok! :) Cya in 4 months time!! :) *waves goodbye* |
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19.8.07
/ 9:11 PM 为什么要自己骗自己? we all know the truth, and the facts are right in front staring at us, should'nt it be time for us to open our eyes wide and see for ourselves? ------ 回首来时萧瑟处, 也无风雨也无晴 ------ sounds cryptic? that's exactly my purpose! |
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18.8.07
/ 2:15 AM  Know why I like and respect Yoda so much? Its not only because he's short, powerful and cute ok! Its because he makes sense, thinks far. More importantly, in the time when the Dark Side rule the galaxy and before Luke Skywalker comes into the scene, he's the only Jedi Master to stand against, and showed his presence against the strong and evil Dark Side, waiting and guiding patiently for the young skywalker to fulfill the prophecy and bring balance to the Force. More more importantly, he's always thinking of bringing balance to the Force, not for war nor selfish gains. For the prophecy, for the Force, for the peace of the galaxy, he's willing to give up his freedom, his fame and even his reputation and life, to go into exile and hiding but never gave in to the Dark Side. That's what earns my respect for him. It must have been a lonely and tough journey for him... Since we're on the topic of Star Wars, lets talk about the 2 Skywalkers then! Well, both are seen as "the one" that can fulfill the prophecy and bring balance to the force. Hmms, you can imagine the immense pressure building up in Anakin Skywalker, especially so when everyone placed their hopes on him and expect him to do more than what his currently doing, this unnescessary pressure on him and the need for him to withdraw himself from all worldly desires eventually brought him to the dark side as well. In short, he don't believe in himself and does not believe in the Force, which eventually made him went astray, and caused him to live in regret despite being the most powerful and "sei" Darth Vader... Ah, lets look at Luke Skywalker! Young, naive, passionate, stubborn, having to clear the shit that his father left behind... He feels tired too, he felt unjustified that he's the one. But he understood one thing and held on to it, that he is the only one who is able to bring balance to the Force and end the War. He held on to that belief, refusing to challenge his lao beh Darth Vader head on, and instead persuade him to return to the way of the Jedi against the evil Emperor. He suffered, kena electrocuted by the evil emperor, "zham" by Darth Vader, chased around by clone armies etc etc. Faced with disbelief, doubts and skepticism from others about Jedi, he persist on, all because he believe. He knows that he's not strong enough to challenge the mighty empire alone, and that there is this angst and tendency for him to go into the Dark Side as "the force in him is strong". As such, he looked to friends for help, and this was when Hans Solo, Princess Leia, even R2D2 and C3PO appeared! They were all different and hard to work with, yet they miraculously brought down the empire and restored peace in the galaxy, coz they were all guided by a strong belief and a young, passionate Jedi that gave them assurance and confidence. No doubt that Luke suffered more than anyone, but it was this sufferings that earn him the respect of the galaxy, making him the youngest Jedi Master. And it was this belief that he held on to firmly that eventually touched Darth Vader to return to the way of the Jedi, costing his life. And all Jedis know that the toughest battles that's unsure of winning are not those against the Sith Lords, but are those inner battles within yourself. The most powerful weapon a Jedi has is not the light sabre, not the "force" in them, but "belief"... you will when you believe :) |
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/ 12:56 AM this is the season of sorrows! ----- Seriously, can you f**king THINK?! don't be such a kum gong can?!!! >:( coz every decision that we make now, and everything that we say now will have deep and long lasting impacts. In short, for goodness sake, everyone, please think longer, further, and think of the bigger picture!!! ----- and please, step out of your own comfort zone! ----- I think I've said this before, nonetheless, the long ear, not horse, not pig but rabbit is going to say it again... "I totally hate people who spread negativity and negative reinforcement around!" Coz no matter how hardworking you are, you are spreading negative vibes around, affecting everyone, especially those who're close to you, in the most irresponsible manner!! Please, F**king wake up your bloody idea can?! ----- As you can see from this blog post, I'm not in the best of mood now, disturb me with any nonsense somemore will earn you a strawberry shortcake cheer from me! "strawberry shortcake blueberry pie, KNNB CCB!!" Phew, always feel much better after kao-beh-ing on blog! :) |
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15.8.07
/ 2:30 AM I believe that 22nd August 2007 will be the start of the next turning point in my life As such, I really hope that I can settle other stuff and issues, put them to a rest before I embark on the trip ----- Dear TAN CHUAN SENG Status: ACCEPTED INTERNAL OFFER You have accepted a place at Zhejiang University on 09/08/2007 for 2007/2008 Semester 2. Yet another exciting experience awaits me ----- I said this before, I control my life, not the other way round, and never will it be! The path ahead is still unclear, filled with uncertainties and dangers. But soon, the picture will become clearer as I embark on the quest for it! =) |
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14.8.07
/ 12:26 AM oweek, rag, flag just over... still consolidating my thoughts for it... for now, share with you people the lyrics of my current favourite song! 《一人一半》 演唱：伍加輝 改編詞:小寒 曲:伍加輝 一人一半 感情不散 一人一素故 感情才会久 时光累计 安静的泪滴 一心去追 爱那么可贵 Chorus： 这样的人 这样地等 无非是等个回应眼神 为爱翻滚 不计伤痕 甘心为你一生都浮沉 這樣的人 別笑我蠢 傻傻的 心痛也不觉疼 就算天冷 就算殘忍 等你想起這沒用的人 一人一半 感情不散 已经找到爱 为何要离开 时光累计 安静的泪滴 一心去追 爱那么可贵 Repeat Chorus* 一人一半 感情不散 已经找到爱 为何要离開 已经找到爱 为何想离開 =) 看开啰！ But still hope to have a chance to explain and clear things up |
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10.8.07
/ 3:10 AM I was so tired after Sentosa day that I knocked out in the clubroom till this morning. When I woke up, I went blog surfing around while waiting for my dad to fetch me home Was reading hock's and my own blog's archive, then tears began to roll down... ... 27.8.06 To all who're still unsure, undecided, confused etc... The answer is in the journey itself :) ----- 22.8.06 I just talked to a long-time-no-see friend, a friend whose intincts I trusted most... Friend:"greener pasture. sounds....... too good to be true, isn't it? be forewarned." Me:"blah blah blah..." Friend:"because if you never go about doing it, you will never find out for urself whether the pasture is indeed, greener on the other side. and for a person of ur calibre, nothing can go too wrong." Me:"blah blah blah.." Friend:"i say this according to my instincts. all major upheavals of course need sacrifices. if u think it's worth it, then just do it. no point pondering then somewhere u may just live to regret." Friend:"i feel that from past experience, you can complete what you start off with." Friend:"and that's good enough. especially when you're speakin of something long term. but then.............. u're easily moody lah, so u need to curb ur overthinking." Yeaps, don't think too much... I never expect that friend to come and talk to me on msn, really must thank her... :) Phew, what an ego booster! And not forgetting today I cleared the air with another friend who had a misunderstanding with me some time ago... I'm gona end this blog entry with a Chinese saying: "君子有所为， 有所不为" ----- 9.8.06 4 days down, 3 more days to go, and I can't wait to see...Can't wait to see the night when all 400 O-Weekers will be bonded as one ARTS familyCan't wait to see the day when this same family of O-Weekers will turn into a 400-strong army to cheer for rag, to show to other faculties what ARTS meansAnd also, I can't wait to see the day when I can meet up with all my brothers, sisters, friends etc etc, everyone, just everyone together, no work, no quarrels, absolutely nothing between us except food and drinks and fun! Aye aye!! :)To my friends, no matter where you are or what happened, please wait for me, I'll join you when my chores are through... ----- 6.8.06 It was way past midnight of 05th August. The meeting just ended for both O week and MC. I promised myself only to shed my tears for things that are worth crying for. Yet on that night, I broke my own promise. Never had I felt so pissed, sad, disappointed, hurt before. At the same time as my tears flow, I knew that I'm crying for my dream too. Haha, to think back, it was the first time after so many years that I cried like a baby! Kaoz, totally lost all the man-ness man! But I know, these tears made me stronger, much stronger... How much tears had to be shed, how much hardship, misunderstanding, bitterness must one endure before a dream can be fulfilled? Let's all work hard for this dream then. :) The unique dream known to all as Project Six to be continued... |
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6.8.07
/ 2:39 AM Can't really consolidate my thoughts into blog posts these days, trying again now... O-Week has been a good emotional getaway for many people ----- If only I could turn back time, what will I do? Answer: I'll still make the same decisions, I had to ----- FOP its really amazing, both positive and negative, how people, relations, events can change and happen during this short period of time. maintaining rationality and sanity is really damn difficult during this period of time ----- misunderstanding and more misunderstandings anger and more anger issues and more issues haisss.. if there are any misunderstandings, clear it if there is any anger, air it if there are any issues, resolve it it takes both hands to clap all of us need to talk, but none of us are in the right mood nor at the right time now to talk nonetheless, there is a need to talk somehow, somewhere, some time... ----- All's not lost... There is still hope ----- tonight, one of those nights when I feel lonesome... ----- sometimes I wonder if I'm good or bad in nature haisss |
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