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30.6.08
/ 1:37 PM

hahaha, i was listening to mr brown show!
wah piang eh, how did the person with the wrong passport get out of singapore?!



29.6.08
/ 3:15 AM

arghh! i can't access to my tagboard!
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leaving hangzhou in one week's time
临别依依
不知道这次一个人的旅途上又会有什么奇遇

"当你孑然一身踏足那些世间最奇怪的地方时,你会感到舍自己外世上再无他物,大自然会令你忘掉一切,包括自己在内。"
"人的最大负担就是自己,是这个『我』!"
these 2 phrases came from the online novel 《大唐双龙传》. while i was reading it, the experience of the 3 gorges tour came to my mind
now i began to understand why i felt like crying when i saw the 3 gorges...
perhaps i was too ego then, and was humbled by nature...
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大自然留给世界名山大川
我们能够留什么给世人呢?
我希望有一天,我活过的痕迹能够被人们像小说故事般流传
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was facebooking a moment ago
was looking at the photo of an ex jc school-mate
wahhh!!! she'd changed so much! never know that she could look like this back in nyjc sia... :x
and i realised that she went to europe and US a few years back
so the point here is: if you wana change how you look, get out of singapore! hahaa! =p

your photos always make me smile to myself...




26.6.08
/ 11:22 PM

I LOVE H&M! hahaha
thanks to carol wong's recommendation, i stepped onto H&M for the first time when i visited Shanghai last month, and oh man, i simply love tt place! hehs
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watched SATC last week, torrent of course! hehs, china is the land of torrent!
thoughts: i really don't understand how women think :/
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on the express train back to hangzhou from shanghai, i read about a female chinese entrepreneur on a magazine provided by the train
she's Dong Si Yang
she's only 23 years old!
and she's now the CEO of 3 companies!!
She started her first business at the age of 17!!!
she's adopting 10 kids now, with a HUGE farm at the outskirt of shanghai, pushing her company to be listed in 3 years time!!!!
and she's chio!!!!!
woahs, RESPECT
she started involving herself into the business world at the age of 16
at this rate, im at least 9 years or more lagging behind her

had a lot of inspiration after reading this article, and my mind starts thinking again...
how to catch up on that 9 years worth of business knowledge and experience?
how to get involved into the business world? what kind of business?
what other things to be involved in the moment i step out of the plane in Singapore?
i think i need mentors, lots of them...
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Was talking to my korean friend just now, we were discussing about political culture and system in Asia and US
i think Koreans are REALLY proud of their country and their democracy
hmm, as a PS major, i start to think to myself, "what about us?"

he was saying, "since people have the right to elect their own leaders, they have the right to criticise and correct the leaders that they've chosen if they've made a mistake."




22.6.08
/ 2:24 AM

Arts Camp
ahh, lots of recollections, happy and sad, touching and passionate moments
so overwhelming that i do not know how i should blog about it

in a far far away land, i wish the Too FASS For You o-com all the best :)
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July is coming, and im going home soon too! :/
before that, ill engage in my half-of-china tour!
hangzhou ---> xi'an ---> hua shan ---> kunming ---> li jiang ---> guangzhou
(eh, can u get back to me asap ah?! grrr)

anw, these five months had been a real good getaway
away from a lot of troubles

one after another, the people in lao lou (my hostel) are going back to their homeland
most of them are coming back, some of them, like me, may not return
i think i'll miss a lot of people when i leave hangzhou
and i'll miss you too

haiz emo... ...

要面对的始终得面对

till then



18.6.08
/ 8:35 PM

YEAH! Another event to look forward to when i return to singapore!!!
i received the email from Prof Chng yesterday saying that i've been accepted into the FASS mentorship program! wooooohoooooo!
since year 1 sem 2 i've been hearing lots about this program, and its always been my wish to participate in it, to learn from FASS graduates about the working world and business world, and to prepare myself for the challenges after honours year, more importantly, to allow me to understand my career options clearly before i graduate
and so, when i received the email calling for registration about 2 months ago while i was in China, i signed up for it immediately.
really looking forward to it! :D

我知道我努力过:

i guessed im more dumb, less lucky than alot of people. honestly speaking, im less suave and eloquent than other guys as well.
没办法,谁叫我又笨、又丑、又不走运、 更不讨人喜欢... hahaha!
to put it nicely, let's just say that i don't like to live just a normal life, and let life bring me around just as it is

as such, i have to plan more, think more and work harder. guess my most precious strength is my perseverence and my tolerance. hehs...

to be frank, i've been thinking of what to do in university during NS time; i've been thinking about joining either arts club MC or NUSSU during the orientation period; i've been pondering about re-running and the things that i wana do in year 2 for arts club since year 1; i've been thinking about improving my CV since year 1; i've been thinking about how to get into SEP and where to go for SEP since year 1; i've been thinking about getting an internship after i stepped down in year 3; i've been constantly thinking about self-improvements and areas to work into; since year 2, i've been thinking on how to resolve the differences between me and the few very important friends in my life.

and so i put these thoughts into actions. at times, i kena jialat jialat, knock left right centre; at times, i put in 110% effort, only to get back 30% reward. But hey, at least there's a little bit of reward, better than nothing! if i put in 0%, i might get negative 50%! hehs...
and at times, it gets onto the nerves of others... ...
but thankfully, when it comes to the crucial moment, there will be someone out there who'll pop out to lend a helping hand or a listening ear.
maybe that's the proof of my efforts paying off... ...

一路上牺牲了很多,但也得到了不少
不多不少,回想起来仍然会感动就好

i may not be very popular, i may not be very successful, but at least at the end of the day, i can tell myself that i've worked hard for the things that i have now and be contented for that :)



17.6.08
/ 1:05 AM

haiz, first it was snow storm in shanghai, jiangsu, zhejiang, hunan, anhui etc
den it was tibetan riots
den it was sichuan earthquake
and now floods in chongqing, henan, jiangxi, guangxi, guangdong
i saw the picture on channelnewsaisa website showing a part of chongqing under the muddy flood water
to think that i was there just 2 months ago...
sigh



16.6.08
/ 11:22 PM

我太理智了
矛盾情结



11.6.08
/ 3:10 AM

梅雨
it has been raining non stop from day to night for the past 4 days, and its going to last till next week
rainy days make me moody

and the continuous rain stops me from going out
so, we stayed in hosel to play... WORM! hahaha
i know its a lao cock cock game already, but there's really nothing for us to do in hostel other than sleep and eat!
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没有开始的结束... 最美



10.6.08
/ 2:13 AM

STUNNED coz...

- my filipino fren was telling me over msn that he's expecting the jeepney and bus unions in manila to go on strike in 4-5 hours time, and the unions actually announced it
wooah, compare that with Singapore
- i just realised this evening that i mapped my modules wrongly! i'll be in deep trouble if i cant change one of the intended UE into a major module :/
- was teaching english to my japanese friend and my vietnamese room-mate the other day. haha as usual, when 3 guys get together, you can expect where the conversation will go, hehs...
suddenly, my friend taka said, "no ambition, no man; no cleavage, no woman!"

oh wells... i guess if someone reads my blog, that person will be saying "whatever"... HAHAHA!



9.6.08
/ 3:06 AM

下一步该怎么走?



7.6.08
/ 1:34 AM

“或者人生在世,会自然而然去追求某些事物... ...
只有通过这追求的过程,人生才有意义... ...
最有趣的只是追求的过程和成功的刹那,接
着便要开始另一个追求。”
《大唐双龙传》



/ 12:05 AM

for the first time in 24 years, i feel that i am getting fat! wahahaha!!
i saw fats on my tummy! woooo hooooo!!!
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anyway, my main purpose of this post is to talk about identity crisis that i'm facing in china
when people in china know that im from singapore, their first remark to their friend is...
"哦,他是老外"
technically speaking, that's correct la, i come from a foreign land. but i'm chinese leh, black hair, black eyes, even my height, size, and my accent oso sama sama leh...
"为什么叫我老外" :x
BUT....
when my frens say that im "tiong-fied", or im "cheena", i get rather upset leh... :/
coz im afterall a singaporean mah

i remember about a 2 months ago, a middle-aged taxi driver started niao-ing me
say that my ancestors run away from china to enjoy life in singapore!!!!
wah piangzzz, i nearly quarrelled with him lor... grrrrr
niao me nvm, niao my ah gong ah ma for f**k?!!

so nowadays, when i go out and meet new people along the way, i say this...
"我的老家在福建省,安溪县,在新加坡住过几年,所以口音有点杂"
and we started sharing things about our "hometown", coz many people in hangzhou come from other provinces

如果天下可以一家,那该有多好...



2.6.08
/ 8:30 PM

可惜不是你
虽然感情已经一点一滴
虽然一直在努力
虽然我们想一直手牵着手地走下去

互相答应
离开的一年里不再联系
不要勾起伤心的回忆
曾经努力地爱着彼此
现在却试着不断地忘记
这应该是世界上最好笑的讽刺

放弃相爱
兑换一个人的蓝天大海
一路上会有悲哀
一路上也许偶尔会感到孤单
我会告诉满天的星星为你导航
带你到那片没有我的将来



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